Kids...

Last weekend Chanel had a dance recital, she was supposed to dance the "Santa Mambo". BUT lately she has gotten a little shy about things, especially when the attention is on her. I had a STRONG feeling she was going to go up on stage and freeze. She did. She walked out there looking like a perfect little barbie baby and she took one look at the giant snowman behind her and the huge crowd in all staring at her and completely froze up. I think she did two moves the entire time, still she looked adorable and when I went backstage to get her she was very proud of herself. I told her she did a perfect job and she looked beautiful and she just said "I know."

She has been so funny lately. She says the funniest things and she catches on to more than I give her credit for! She is witty and smart and I absolutely LOVE to be with her. She is getting so BIG now, its sad. She is exactly 3 ft. 6 in. and growing FAST!! She will pass me up by the time she is 8 yrs. old I'm sure. I want to write a few things down so I don't forget...

I love when she gets shy she hides behind one of my legs and and just stares up at me with this look like "please tell them to stop looking at me and talking to me!?"

I love to sleep next to her WHEN SHES AWAKE. When she is asleep its not so fun! She kicks, farts and snores like you couldn't believe!! But if ever I am tired and I get a chance I will beg her to come up to my room with me and watch a movie while I sleep. She is the best little cuddler a mommy could ask for and without fail, every time I lay next to her I'm out. Shes like my little sleeping pill!!

Some cute words she cant say just right: Packpack (backpack), Mrs. werwain (Mrs. Larrain), Movie peter, taaayons (crayons), Ava Win (Ava Lyn), Oliher (Oliver), Dama & Dampa, dowing (going) Pome on (come on. I know she has more and I will try to write them later.

Rori Ana is also growing like a weed! We went to her 18 mo. check up today and she is now 32 inches tall, which puts her in the 66%! But she weighs in at only 23 lbs, so she is in the 36% for her weight. I don't know how because I swear she eats more than her siblings. Right now she is at the stage that drives me nuts, don't get me wrong I love her to pieces and I love being around her (for the most part) but she has a really hard time communicating and she gets SO MAD when I don't understand her gibberish?! It reminds me of the double dutch bus! She will point and say something and to her it makes perfect sense but to a stupid adult like myself, I don't know what the heck she is telling me!? So she will kick and scream until I get it right. I cant wait for her to really start talking so we can get this stage over with.

Ava Lyn is doing great! She sleeps through the night now and has for over a month. She is so laid back and patient. She hardly ever cries and when she does its a very quiet polite cry if that at all possible. She smiles at everyone and LOVE to talk to people. She is so funny, I will try my hardest for the longest time to get her to giggle and she will just smile her enormous grin but, no noise. But every now and then for the most random things she will CRACK UP!! Here are a few: When I sing Black eyed Peas, BOOM BOOM POW. When I clean her hands, when I sneeze or yawn, and when the kids are playing she thinks its pretty funny. She is still pretty small for her age, both my preemies are. She weighs in at only 11.5 lbs which sets her in the 10% and she is 23 inches long and in the 33%. The 2 older ones are GIANTS and always fall in the 90% or higher and the 2 little ones are LITTLE??!!

Jameson is getting BIG waaay too fast! I was at the doctors office when I looked over and he was all up in my face?! I couldn't figure out when he had gotten tall enough to pretty much stare me in the face? I swear he grew over night!! He is a GIANT 4 FT TALL!!???? I am only 5' 4! By the time this kid is in 1st grade he will be as tall if not taller than me?! I get so sad, I want him so badly to be a baby again. He is too smart for his own good, he is funny, and so happy! Nothing can bring this kid down! He loves school and makes new friends wherever he goes. People cant help but to love being around him, and so do I.

I love being a mom! I love all my kids. I recently had someone ask me what I thought about having kids so young. I told them how I thought I was living "the life" before, I had a new car, my own apartment, my own $, I did what I want when I wanted. That's not to say I don't miss my freedom but, I would never in a million years change the way things turned out. I used to think I was living the life and had it all. Nope, this is the life now, my kids are my joy in life. I am now living "the life", and its a meaningful life. I know what my goals are, I know where I'm headed, I know the direction I want to go and who I want to be with. Before I was just wingin' it. Just taking it day by day and never knew what was to come or where I was going. Now, I still take it day by day and I get fun and not so fun little surprises everyday with these crazy kids but, in the end I know what I want and who I want it with.

These are my peeps, who I roll with... MY HOMIES!!

And they give me all the love, happiness, joy, peace and comfort I could ever ask for!