Little Randoms...

Jameson is the most wonderful, patient big brother any little girl could ask for. He treats his sisters with so much kindness, love and care. I know I have said this WAY too many times but he really is the best!! These 3 girls are lucky to have him!!

Rori's "oh crap, I'm in trouble" face.

Jameson laughing while Rori PULLS his hair and screams!!!

Poor kid!! At the rate he is loosing his teeth he isn't going to have many left! He is at the funny looking, awkward stage where hes just a little scrawny, missing all his teeth, messy hair and he is growing so fast that all his clothes are waaaay too small for him! I'm afraid it isn't going to end anytime soon either.

Ava found her tongue! And its the cutest little tongue I ever did see!! I love it! And THOSE EYES!!!!

Rori makes some funny faces!

Chanel looks so grown up here! She is so beautiful.

It is so funny watching these girls play. Here they were being teachers, I didn't even think Rori knew what a teacher was? But after watching them for a minute I could see she knew exactly what she was doing. She would go the the front of the class (bottom stair) and talk and then say "SEE!" and point at the wall!! It was so funny! And Chanel would love on Rori and all the "students" and give them all kisses and drop them off and say "I love you! Have a good day and listen to your teacher!!" And Rori would grab them and sit them down. Funny that those 2 understand each other so well and they speak 2 totally different languages! Or maybe I'm just the idiot?

These kids make everyday so much fun. I wish I would always remember the way they feel, smell, talk, walk... Its amazing how fast they grow up and how fast you forget. I remember when I had Jameson and looking at him, holding his little hands and feet. Touching every little part of him and being so happy and in total bliss. Thinking how could a mother ever forget what this is like? How could you forget this smell or this feeling? Well, now I cant remember what he smelled like or felt like? He was so big and sturdy but so soft and sweet. But still I cant remember it totally? I remember when Chanel was born and thinking she really was the prettiest little thing I ever laid my eyes on. She was so precious and again looking at every little part and how tan she was. But this time I knew how easy it was to forget and how fast it would be gone. I would hold her and think well then she will just have to grow up in my arms! And now look at her, she doesn't even fit in my arms anymore! She seems so grown up already and she is only getting bigger?! Why cant they just stay little? And when Rori was born and I started crying because she was so small! I had never seen anything so small!? I remember telling the doctor she wasn't ready, like he could say ok, we will just put her back in and wait a little longer then. But really that was all that was running through my head, even though I knew it wasn't possible I really did want to!! AND WHEN AVA WAS BORN FORGET IT!!! I was a little more prepared to see such a small baby but not at all prepared to see her hooked up to wires, tubes and machines and all the difficulties that would come along with all of that. I would just look at her and cry! Yelling at her for not waiting! I was so amazed at how something so small and vulnerable could be so strong and brave at the same time! I DON'T WANT MY KIDS TO GROW UP!!! I know every mother knows what I'm talking about, especially those that have kids that have kids!! I cant even imagine!? What will it be like to wake up and not hear a little stampede of feet running down the hall into our room? Jumping all over us like we are unbreakable? Not to have little voices constantly talking or screaming in my ear? Asking such simple yet complicated questions? I just really need to remind myself to take it day by day and soak it all in. I need to stop stressing about all the little dumb things that I find myself thinking about constantly and focus on all the little good things I have. I want to soak it all in while I can because 20 yrs from now I'm not going to remember or care if my house was clean. But I do want to remember if my kids were happy and if I was happy. I want to try to remember every little thing about them and I will do my best to capture it all on camera!!